There's certain parts of decorating a house that I love and find easy, and there's several parts that I think are utterly difficult. I have no problem at all finding chairs, tables, cupboards and things such as prints, wallpapers and ceramics. I love to add those elements to my interior and I like to experiment with them. On the other hands things such as carpets and curtains... oh drama!
You see I do have a bit of a curtain trauma from our previous home. I chose dark brown ones (which was a compromise, I actually wanted white ones and Helmut wanted dark ones, long story ;)) and the moment we hung them I already knew I had made a mistake. I never liked them and they kept annoying me for years, but hey, they were quite expensive and if I replaced them, who knew my next choice would turn out better? And just like that a terrible lack of curtain-confidence showed up in my life.
Same thing goes for carpets. They're also big and expensive and they can really define a place. You usually can't test them and it's difficult to imagine how they'll look in your home, so it's not hard to make a mistake that can't be undone easily. It's tempting to just choose a simple neutral one, but I usually find neutral things boring, and when I'm about to spend lots of money on something big I just prefer to spend it on something that I've really fallen in love with, and not on something that's neutral and that 'at least won't be a terrible mistake'.
So when I fell in love with vintage Turkish kilims a while ago, I was challenged to come out of my 'curtains-are-scary-and-carpets-even-more' comfort zone. I found gorgeous ones online from a Turkish etsy seller, but this meant not being able to see them in real life and having to base this big and scary decorating decision on a few pictures. I really loved these carpets, but well, they weren't exactly neutral. And what would the colors be like in real life, would they match with the other colors in our living room?
After nights of pondering I had made a shortlist of two favorites: one that I thought would go best with the colors of the living room, and one that I was simply in love with, even though it's colors didn't quite match the rest of the house. And then I just couldn't choose... The safe and relatively neutral option or the foolish love?
At a certain point even Helmut -who thought those kilims were a crazy waste of money in the first place- started to push me to buy one, because he got tired of my long nights of staring with a puzzled look at those two possible kilims at the computer screen, then looking at their possible future spot in the living room, then looking at the two options again, then looking at the living room again... And that for hours at a stretch ;).
But well, lack of curtain-and-carpet-confidence is a condition not to be underestimated... So I hesitated, considered, pondered and doubted till my 'neutral option' sold out.
And then I realized that there was no time to lose: fate forced me to choose foolish love!
So now we own a crazily colorful vintage woolen kilim instead of a neutral cream colored one, and after some first moments of shock and 'what have I done', I'm falling in love with it more and more every day. And my neutral curtains are not too bad either ;).
Oh and if you wonder if the mess on the floor is part of my new Selby-like photo styling... No, this is just what it looks like here on a good day.
Pictures brought to you by me and my little helper... always happy to fiercely pull my hair the moment I'm just about to take a photo!